Fear

23 years old already. But i fear I havent been mature enough.

To face a new thing
To face a new friend
To embrace a new opportunity

Deep within, I feel a lil stumbled. Shudder inside my heart. About whats going on next, about the response they are about to toss on me. About indifference whether my skill could cope well or no.

I want to run. But I know, I am a big girl now. They call it 'mature'
I want to whine. But i fully aware, a woman wont do that
I want to hide my fear, but no hole I ve found to fit in
I want to cry. But I know I would give such a burden

all I am doing now, put a very best smile on me. Smile that would display 'all is Fine' to anyone who ask for it and hope for that and wont take not fine as answer
Put a very best of my courage to push my self forward, jump into the uncertainty
The last...
Put the hardest prayer to the only place I could whine, cry, beg, run to. My God.
He will say everything is going to be fine, through a soft calmness in my heart.