Posting dalam Bahasa Indonesia

Eits... Judulnya kesannya saya jago banget bahasa Inggris. Haha... Malah sebaliknya, sering nulis Inggris di blog justru pengen belajar bahasa Inggris. Tapi justru saya ngeliat postingan saya yang pakai bahasa Indonesia lebih fleksibel dan fun aja untuk di baca. Jadi saya putuskan di blog ini akan nulis pake dua  bahasa (Indonesia dan Inggris) untuk beda postingan tentunya hahaha.

Hmmm... pengennya nulis banyak banyak. Tapi... karena saya harus belajar untuk interview besok, saya tahu diri saya harus belajar, dan nahan diri buat ga stalkingin orang, eh maksudnya nulis blog :p. Okee, tapi untuk bantu nginget tulisan apa yang pengen saya tulis, coba saya tulis dibawah topik apa aja yang kira kira menarik buat saya tulis:

1. Nikah itu ibadah (<duieleeh... anaknya ngebet nikah abis)
2. Education First bukan English First
3. Job Interview
4. How to draw fashion sketches (tentatif haha)
5. Jalan-jalan di Singapore!!! (Seru)
6. Jalan Jalan di Mesir (meski ini 4 tahun lalu sih hahaha)

Nah, semoga saya masih bersemangat dalam menulis. Aamin.

Okay, karena besok Senin (dan interview) jadi mau sedikit muhasabah dulu hahahaha dengan kertas kertas interview besok.

Best,
nafas hujan

Interview Preparation

Interview... Hmm... this tricky step of getting a job. Great interviewer sometimes wouldn't give you any of glimpse whether he/she is satisfied with your answer. He/she could make you telling story and respond to it very well that you dont know whether it works or no.

This week, I am going to have 2 consecutive interview on Monday and Sunday via live meeting. Live meeting? Yes, because I am applying for regional assignment in Singapore. The interviewers of course were based there. What to prepare then?

Technical:

1. Since it's gonna be online, I gotta make sure the connection going well and no distraction exist. So, booking room for interview is done!

2. Headset. Invest on a good one! Otherwise, it will impact on the quality of voice you'll be hearing

Non technical:

1. Understand the job properly. I was given a sheet of full description about my job desc. Tonight (I know its too late hahaha), I am going to delve deep that sheet.

2. Prepare my Strength and Weakness and the narrative. I was told by my current Line Manager. When you are about to tell the strength and weakness, make sure you fulfill STAR. What is STAR?

• S: exact Situation when you've applied your strength, describe the event, 
• T : Forget hahaha
• A: Forget hahaha
• R : Result. tell them how was the result of the event you've described earlier.

3. Learn my cv. What I have written is what they will ask me about.

4. Mental. Put the nothing to loose mentality.

Okay, be back with the first phase of interview result and the abbreviations of TA in STARS.

Bye.

Deeper Conversation

This gate will be opened for both of us, Insya Allah. We are going to enter, that gate together. You and me. This gate is not a game, it's a journey instead. Not for lover, but for partners who love each other unconditionally. I'ts getting nerve wrecking for we will spend our life together, forever till Jannah insya Allah. I'ts getting nerve wrecking for these two different human being. What is your dream? Are we pursuing the same dream? What do you think I should improve? How do you envision life? Through those questions, I'm learning what life you and I will live in, and I'm learning you...

Is your favourite colour blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outerspace?
And i'm learning you

He asked the reason behind my strangest behavior. He asked about my insecurity. Then he tried to read me, my personality. He is learning me...

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone take a portion of your heart?
And im learning you

We confessed. We talked heart to heart, sometimes with tension, then calmer. I told him, what I really was passionate about, he listened carefully, very carefully which I hated and loved about him at the same time. He could make me telling stories I have never been telling everyone, the biggest fear I was afraid to tell to any man I had crush on. He did it, only him.

And if you dont mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

I love when he created this comfort zone around me, the safest place I can utter literally everything. You broke my self defense layer by layer when I know you are one of those few I could trust. And I know you were doing the same too, telling me something I can only know. I can sense your worry, but please, dont worry. I'm here to accompany you, passing through everything.

I let my guard down for you
And in time you will too

If you dont mind, please tell me everything, everything. I'd love to listen to your every story, even your darkest. Because I love to be a part of you.

if you dont mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

Please don't give up on my tantrum, childish behaviour which frustated you many times. Please don't stop taking me to deeper conversation, because I enjoyed when I am learning you.

if you dont mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears
and Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

Yuna- Deeper Conversation

Acceptance

Things were going so rough this week (Phew, I'm using english instead of Indonesian again). I have to keep telling my self all over again that I need a break to think over what's been occurring in the past days.

Well, I questioned these many why's in my life recently? I didnt get the place I want in my career, I didnt get the salary increase as much as I expected, and why I was told to be in the place that in my opinion didnt really offer robust learning for my career.

Then, I realized it all happened, there were nothing else I could do. Gavel was pounded, things were decided. I had no higher power to amend the decision. It was hurt at the first, I was crying overnight, I decided to take a work from home only to calm my nerves down. I was so upset, oh no more disappointed. I was losing direction and hope at the same time.

Then, I reflect. I was too consumed to my disappointment. My energy was drained out. Left the negative thought, while nothing productive I did during the time. I wasted my energy for nothing.

Then, I remembered, those my glorious day. Not because my achievement, instead by the maturity I possessed back then. Compared to now, I didnt get to achieve what I achieve now, but I was so happy and content. During that time, back in my junior school era, I was bullied, didnt get many friends, I was neither smart nor clever student, I was having this teenager issue with my whole family, but I could control my emotion. Why?

Then, I get the answer. I was so full of acceptance. I accepted things happened for reasons, failure directed me to a better path, failure taught me to work harder without any excessive expectation, patience was my fruitful blessing from God, and et cetera. I was far more wise back then.

So what happened to me now? Yes, I got this too much worries, what if I couldn't sustain my family life, what if I couldn't make my family happy, and a lot of what ifs.

I know, I have this prime homework. I know the answer: I have to get rid all of this worries and let the self assurance and acceptance in to my mind.