Every beginning is a beginning of parting

Have you ever composed pieces of puzzle into a perfect picture? It feels perfect, when you get a clear whole picture at the end of the game, right? You feel satisfied because it all gets together there, creating such a good harmonious picture. But how do you feel when you realize that one piece or several pieces are missing from the group?

Thats what I feel now. I felt like I am missing my piece of puzzle. I feel unsatisfied and disappointed at the sametime because the picture I am going to see is never be the same. My missing puzzle is my coworker that I recently knew for this 6 months. I thought I would've never felt this heart break because I now that I would be the one who leave the team first in the upcoming months so that I wont be devastated by losing one of them. Besides, I never thought before that this fraternity bond has been created inside each of our soul.

But this things happen so fast, just in a blink of eyes. Starting with the rumor previous month ago, that the company will cut off the employee. I didnt take it seriously because the news was not that blossoming. Then, this month, I had this meeting with my team, the rumor seems to be real. Several people get the phone call to end the contract with the company. That day, I began to tremble, but not that much frightened because the up management hadnt announced it.

But then, the day after, the nightmare seemed to be true.  The up management decided to answer the rumor and give a clarity toward the restless mind. It's decided that the cut off will be made within a week due to the global crisis. I felt the devastation atmosphere inside the room. Whisper, mumble, and question began to blossom and voice their restlessness. No doubt. Most of them are the head of the family, most of them have a responsibility to feed up their family. They felt so vulnerable because within 2 months we were gonna have a Ramadhan month and Lebaran day. How am I supposed to feed and cloth my family if I get fired? At least that what they thought.

Gradually, my dearest friend begin to be cut off. They got the call. My heart crushed. I lost my little family. Well, i know that our friendship will last after this cut off. But the work life would never be the same I guess. We cant be that free in joking and discussing about the same company. But yeah, thats the life. Anything could happen without our permission, thats the life lesson I ve learned. However, I am thankfully relieved that my friends got a very reasonable compensation and they leave our company with feeling respected and loved. Their testimony toward our company is quite positive.

I was quite a bit relieved that day. Because I heard the rumor that for my area, the cut off is over, now the storm began to move to east. I am relieved, At least my team was safe. Apparently I was wrong. By the night, I  heard the spread that one of my team was cut off. Yeah, the person that contributed most of the sales in our team. The same person that was very keen, unusual, out of the box, and nervy. Gosh, how I envy for that character. The same person that also personally contributed to my personal feeling, as my brother, my mentor, and the person that I believe to pour my stories. I really lost him, we all do. I never stop crying when I realize that our team should move forward without him  . Its very heartbreaking. I ve always missed his advice and jokes. He melted our tension and blended us together into a fraternity bond. And he is unbelievably strong. He takes the decision calmly. Like his life isnt merely depending into the company which is 100 percent true.

Well, I just wished him good luck. I do believe that this decision is indeed whats best for him and his family. He deserves a better life that he may get outside the company.

Good bye Hulk, we ve always missed you....

Mistake in the Past

Dear good Lord,
I surrender for the fate
Which may break

Dear good Lord
I ve no power
Just only a prayer

Dear good Lord,
Please forgive
All the sins
The wrong deed
The wrong wish
Because I was a basin
Full of sin

Dear good Lord,
I am deeply sorry
For chanting those words
Wish I couldve taken those words
Wish I couldve been fair
I am deeply sorry
For being your very
Ungrateful slave
Which possess lame behave

Sesederhana itu

Aku mencintaimu dengan sederhana

Tak menyanjung kata, tak menyanjung puja
Tak memberi bentuk sempurna

Aku mencintaimu tanpa syarat

Menyisih setiap duri dan karat

Dalam hati yang pernah terluka

Aku mencintaimu dengan sederhana

Dalam untaian doa kepada Sang Pencipta

Aku mencintaimu dengan harap

Pada sang Kuasa dalam setiap itikaf

Untuk mimpi tentang suatu masa

Ketika kita merupakan ridhaNya

Ketika kita merupakan wujud ibadah kepadanya
Ketika kita melahirkan kebaikan tak terhingga

Iceberg Mountain Philosophy

Hi dear, i just got back from development skill training held by my company where I worked. The training was super fun, like u enjoyed every second spent and back home with the high level commitment and positive energy. But one of the takeaway I got from the training was this iceberg mountain term during communication skill session. I ve heard about the term so many times but had no idea what it meant. Its familiar as fenomena gunung es in Indonesian. 

So, what is actually the iceberg mountain is? What is the relation with the communication skill?

Well iceberg is literally a large piece of freshwater ice that has broken off a glacier or an ice shelf and is floating freely in open water.^[1][2] It may subsequently become frozen into pack ice (one form of sea ice). It is derived from A partial loan translation from Dutchijsberg, literally meaning ice mountain,^[3] cognate toDanish isbjerg, German Eisberg, Low Saxon Iesbarg andSwedish isberg. 

If you google the images of the iceberg, most of them shows that the surface is much less smaller than whats beneath the water. Thats true. Because the one tenth volume of iceberg is above the water. The shape of the underwater portion can be difficult to judge by looking at the portion above the surface. This has led to the expression "tip of the iceberg", for a problem or difficulty that is only a small manifestation of a larger problem.(Source: wikipedia). 

The phylosophy of iceberg could be applied into various cases. For example is talent. You just see or realize 10 percent of your potential (remember one tenth portion of iceberg volume which is visible to eyes) and that means you probably never realize or optimalize your 90 percent of your whole talent.

In communication, we might encounter the problem but as far as we could see. And we begin to put assumption and address with incorrect or less effective strategy. Then the seen is the tip of iceberg. How about the unseen? It may happen that the unseen is 90 percent cause of problem.

If we carefully analyse deeply and probing information from various sources, we may attract quite number of possibilities of the root cause. Perhaps that would be quite shocking, because you never guess it before. It is hidden or worse.., its invisible. My trainer told us that we need to see that invisibility to tailor the problem with right stategy. Then how to see the invisible? I havent got clear info about that. But maybe with the total practice to consumer (means you communicate not only to customer but also to the friends, collegue, and the near person of that customer) and develop the personal approachment to them also. We may get some invisible info and dig out the undiscovered  thing.

Inspired or Competitive?

Hi, there... I am in the midst of waiting for the uncertainty. Again? Dont worry, dear. Its job related matter, not personal matter (which u are probably bored bout this).

I took a lil online walk to blog of several friends of kakang and including kakang's blog which isnt catagorized stalking (I hope so). Guess what I found out? Well, they are amazingly creative and smart and inspiring. I often consumed a spare time to read their amazing article. Feeling so bloody cornered and embarassed at the same time. Compared to my blog, their blogs are just like colourful, informative, and well organized. Haha my blog? Its a mess.. People might find it outrageous (including kakang :p. Still shivering for that term), depressing, like being pulled into negative magnitude.

So, because of the deep contrast between theirs and mine, I decide to renovate my blog. Haha. Its a good inspiration of theirs to follow, rite? Hoewever, Just a second after, I felt negative thought striking. Am I being competitive on them? Do I feel insecure because of them? Those negative thought came after I read my personality. My overriding need is Competitiveness... But then, i remember the iceberg mountain. I gotta focus on what the basic need why I want to renovate this. Basic need is I just wanna be useful for people around. I wanna scatter the inspiration and mood booster, pull them into my positive magnitude. Then what about being competitive? Yes, maybe I am. I am racing with them in spreading the good. The more people do the positive things, the better world would be. Rite? Like a well said verse 

"For each [religious following] is a direction toward which it faces. So race to [all that is] good. Wherever you may be, Allah will bring you forth [for judgement] all together. Indeed, Allah is over all things competent"

And yes I am racing.... We all are. Racing toward You. To get Your Love. Insya Allah

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