Hi, there... I am in the midst of waiting for the uncertainty. Again? Dont worry, dear. Its job related matter, not personal matter (which u are probably bored bout this).
I took a lil online walk to blog of several friends of kakang and including kakang's blog which isnt catagorized stalking (I hope so). Guess what I found out? Well, they are amazingly creative and smart and inspiring. I often consumed a spare time to read their amazing article. Feeling so bloody cornered and embarassed at the same time. Compared to my blog, their blogs are just like colourful, informative, and well organized. Haha my blog? Its a mess.. People might find it outrageous (including kakang :p. Still shivering for that term), depressing, like being pulled into negative magnitude.
So, because of the deep contrast between theirs and mine, I decide to renovate my blog. Haha. Its a good inspiration of theirs to follow, rite? Hoewever, Just a second after, I felt negative thought striking. Am I being competitive on them? Do I feel insecure because of them? Those negative thought came after I read my personality. My overriding need is Competitiveness... But then, i remember the iceberg mountain. I gotta focus on what the basic need why I want to renovate this. Basic need is I just wanna be useful for people around. I wanna scatter the inspiration and mood booster, pull them into my positive magnitude. Then what about being competitive? Yes, maybe I am. I am racing with them in spreading the good. The more people do the positive things, the better world would be. Rite? Like a well said verse
"For each [religious following] is a direction toward which it faces. So race to [all that is] good. Wherever you may be, Allah will bring you forth [for judgement] all together. Indeed, Allah is over all things competent"
And yes I am racing.... We all are. Racing toward You. To get Your Love. Insya Allah
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