Letter for Daughter

I am a spoiled one

I always blame condition, sometimes people for failure ever happened in my life. How lame....

I always think that I am the miserable one, that Life isn't treating me just fair enough, that I am not born with all perfections, that I am born only with humiliation. How pathetic...

I even refused to look reflection on mirror, because it somehow tears me apart, somehow tell me that I am not Snow White, looking ridiculous even in beautiful dress, and extremely examining about wrongs in my face.... nose, cheek, lips... everything seems not okay. How ungrateful...

I want life going on as what I want, going perfect without need to spend some effort. I never allow anyone steal my spotlite, and all I want everything is about me. How idle and selfish ...

Life is fair
it's Yin and Yang

Dear my daughter, one day, you'll learn, you'll know
Life isnt about selfish, but sharing
Life isnt about long, but short
Life isnt about hate, but love and being loved,
Life isnt about what we want, but what we need
Life isnt about being spoiled, but independent
these are somethings I am still working on...

but I hope you are stronger, in facing your very own fear
in conquering spoilness beneath your way

Believe...
Allah has always something beautiful
behind all the dark clouds

all you have to do is
waiting, learning, working, and never forget praying

My daughter,
I am always beside you, I promise
I want to walk you through the hardness of being teenager
Just remind me, if i am not on my way
if I am not guiding you enough

My daughter,
I am sure, you are somewhere out there
still planned by Allah to be sent here
right in my arm
riched with my love and your daddy's love
I am sure, you will have beautiful face and behavior
I beg to Allah, to give you a best gift, your beautiful akhlaq
as beautiful as Fatimah Azzahra, daughter of Nabi Muhammad (peace upon him)
I do want to name you after her :)

just wait for me to pick you
wait for me to get your shalih daddy
and we are gonna pick you
at the place where Allah send you to the earth

on that day
surely I will be so grateful to have you
do wait for your presence to the world
feels like you are the most greatest present I ve ever had

once again...
to be your beloved mommy