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17 August 2011
I know it s been late to say, but I want to say Happy Independence Day for my beloved country :D. Surely I love you more and more as I hate the people inside it more and more #corruptors
I chatted him for uploading the pictures during our time in Thailand. We mocked each other, as usual. I laughed, I missed him of course but still no feeling for him. I just missed my crazy friend. It was just the time in Thailand was over and the reality to go back to college was appearing so real at that time. Thailand was a good fling for the routine things back in college.
8 December 2011
End of year. I was in my friend's home. I moved my finger unintentionally towards him. August was the last time we chatted. Whats for this time I chat him? I wanted to ask him why he was online, was he supposed to be learning for exams? Because my crush was about to have exams. He seemed to be startled. He didnt have any exams. Instead, we were babbling, mocking each other again. It was funny, we still called intan and syahrul :p. Who started the fire? It was him. He asked me how much boyfriends I had #belagu amat yang punya pacar banyak. I didn't know how it went but he suddenly said ' I am about to know you more. How about that?'. He kept asking. I knew he was only kidding, but still I was startled. I assumed he just had heart broken so he just needed someone to talk to. I agree, I said yes. It was funny how we didnt know each other's number. We knew for almost 5 months. Yeah there was no interaction at all before, no intention at all.
Phone Call, Texts, Chats, Skype
9 December 2011
Never thought he would text me, because I knew he was kidding, plus kindda busy for interview. but he did, he texted me. I still ignored him, he couldnt be trusted.
And the stories go along.
He called me everynight on my exams week.
I realized, he was my morphine during my exams week. Had he intoxicated me? Not quite sure
I got known him more as we interacted more, phone calls, texts, chats, skype were so intense.
I begin to be afraid, how if I gradually fell for him? It shouldnt happen.
17 December 2011
He called me as usual. We were laughing at the first. Then the conversation got serious. I asked him about 'us', about the condition that was not advantageous for both of us, how if one of us begin to depend on each other, and then one of us disappeared without any notification. He answered: i doesnt matter, just go with the flow.
He told the story about 500 days of summer. He was "SUMMER", yeah I posted about him. I thought he messed around. He did. He didnt want to have any relationship. He wanted to have one in 2013, with someone unpredictable and close to him, as Summer did. He never planned to have relationship with me, I concluded. He just wanted to know me more, he said. Then what next? Nothing. Just to get closer. I got mad, did he consider me as only a fling in his busy life? I never imagined to have relationship with him tho, it was just, I don't want be the fling. Then it went out from my mouth, I said something that made him upset.
18 December 2011 at 00.00 am
I sent him something, I knew he got mad.
friendship is a ship that never sink. lets be that ship and dont get mad, i just have my own enigma
19 December 2012
H: bye
M: "i do apologize for mistakes i ve done. thanks for the lovely 7 days u gave, and phone calls u made that cost u financial problem, it surely loosens me up in facing exams. nothing i could do except pray to Allah to payback your kindness . sure, i do believe u r gonna be great person . if our paths cross again, pls dont change, pls consider me as ur old friend where we laugh&bully each other, believe it/not: that was fun:)"
no reply. That was it. He was gone, I knew it would happen sooner or later. It was just a matter of time. "What should I do? Say hi to the future, and goodbye to the past"
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